Sunday, August 4, 2019

Why I Have 4 Blogs

I started blogging on 10/12/2012 about overeating. The next day I blogged about facing my fears and continued to work on getting past my fears ever since. Also, since then I have been blogging daily about what I am grateful for plus something funny. My sense of humor is one thing I love about myself. Plus, making people laugh makes my day!

Looking back now and going over each blog I write, I see the breath and depth of recovery and how it can impact a person's life. A new life in recovery can feel as though you are in an ocean, barely keeping your head above water. You first tread water slowly to not tire yourself out. But, at some point, you need to get moving and get yourself out of the water. That comes with careful planning.

When I started blogging, I didn't even think about where I would end up. I followed my thoughts because that matters. I realized recently that my thoughts guided me throughout my recovery. Someone in therapy talks about what is on their mind.  So, that is what I did, along with therapy. I worked on what was on my mind, day in and day out.

I began with RecoveryinBalance.HOW  because that is my goal: to recover my distorted self and stay balanced, which is the foundation of any successful life in recovery. As I got stronger, I felt the need to blog and vent about the monsters who raised me. First, I wrote about mother because it began with her. That blog is MyViciousPsychopathMother.

She taught me hatred. As I got through her abuse, as best I could, I realized more and more the role my sisters played in abusing me.

Realizing that my upbringing turned me into a bully, I felt the need to be honest about how dreadfully I behaved to people in my life because I could see how that came about for me. I also knew what it took to stop and turn that hatred into love and compassion. So, was born.

As my thoughts centered more on the benefits I experience from my hard work, I set up my 4th blog:  NurturePersonalGrowth

I want to show how deep and saturating abuse can be for a person, and also how deep and saturating recovery needs to be for that person to heal and thrive, slowly over time.

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