Wednesday, October 30, 2013

Getting the Emotional Side of Overeating Under Control

I am an emotional eater. Name the emotion and I overate to go along with it. I would stuff myself with fattening and unhealthy foods to not feel the emotions that made me unhappy. It was the only way I knew how to cope. I either overate or I drank myself into oblivion because I lacked the coping skills to deal with what was going on it my life or to face old hurts.

One of the coping skills I learned to use is Journaling. I write out whatever my thoughts are about any given topic, I usually write down thoughts that cross my mind and free write either handwritten or typed out what I am thinking about, feeling over xyz topic. I have found out that I had a ton of suppressed anger, hatred, rage along with some other negative emotions that did not belong to me. I had picked them up along the way in my life and found myself stuck with them. Stuck with them until I learned how to rid myself of them permanently.

I am also in Psychotherapy and have been for ages now. It has been very worth all the time I have spent writing out, accepting old ineffective behaviour and replacing it with healthier tools to face my life with on a daily basis. Believe me, for me it has been a very long road and at times, it has been very painful. However, today as I am today, I am happy, much happier than I ever thought I could be. And, the emotional cravings for unhealthy foods are gone.

For me, that is HUGE!!  I can still eat foods I enjoy and now I eat them in moderation. I can eat whatever I want to and I am now finding myself eating healthier foods and actually wanting those and not wanting foods that are unhealthy for me.

Because of this eating pattern, my weight has roller coasted throughout my adult life. I have weighted 325 pounds at my heaviest and I have weighted 130 pounds at my slimmest. I am now losing weight once again after having gained back roughly 80 pounds and getting myself to a weight of 266 lbs. I am short, this is not acceptable for me. I am determined to get the excess weight OFF once and for ALL!!

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