Monday, September 30, 2013

Gratitude for 9-30-2013 and Actually Being Happy!

Today I am grateful that I can claim a happy life for myself and actually be happy!

A positive attitude is so much easier for me to maintain now, I have a lot of the misery I entered psychotherapy with behind me and out of my head. Will there still be ups and downs? Of course there will be, that is life. It can be fun and devastating, life goes on...........Coping with a stronger emotional base and looking on the bright side is making my life much more fun and exciting than I can ever remember it being!

I have worked very hard and I have come a very long way! And it is doable, you just have to take that first step and never let go!

Saturday, September 28, 2013

Gratitude for 9-28-2013 and Reaching for the STARS !!

Today I am grateful to be able to reach for the STARS!!!

I am feeling better emotionally than I have in years!! There are so many techniques and strategies I can and applying to improve my life and I am loving it!! Will I have ups and downs? Of course, that is part of life; I am finding that approaching my life with a can do attitude and working through issues in a healthy manner is making all the difference to me. I am sticking with that!!

Friday, September 27, 2013

Gratitude for 9-27-2013 and Being Grateful for Being Excited Again

Today I am grateful that I am experiencing excitement once again in my life!

I have done a ton of work to get my demons behind me and out of my head and it is feeling FANTASTIC!! I handle myself much more maturely now and don't brutalize people like I once did because I was so full of rage and anger. Things just don't bother me like they once did and I can address different situations much better now because I am calmer than I was.

I firmly believe that I owe this to flat out hard work, journaling, psychotherapy and hypnosis. I am a HUGE Fan of Hypnosis, it fascinates me and I am just thrilled to be able to use it and learn more on what it can do. It is a true blessing to turn these pages in my life and to be able to see on the other side of the mountains and not be at the bottom  trying to see the top.

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Gratitude for 9/26/2013 and Being Grateful That I Can Build My Life How I Want It To Be

I am so grateful and just THRILLED that I get the privilege to build my life how I want to!!

I have chosen to surround myself with loving and wonderful people!! I get to do hypnosis and get rid of behaviours that are ugly and unproductive and reprogram myself with positive and effective behaviour. It is a thrill and I love it! I so look forward to every day now and the adventures every day brings to me.

I get to spend time in person with folks who are happy to see me and who I thoroughly enjoy my time with. I get to interact with people who have similar problems to mine and we are supportive of each other. I get to chose what I eat and how I get to prepare it.  I get to indulge myself in making crafts and people actually pay me money to wear my work! I absolutely LOVE how that makes me feel, I just get ELATED about that and their reaction to my work!  That is one of the areas I am building my life on, my goal and my dream is to be self-supporting.

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Gratitude for 9-25-2013 and Being Grateful for All the Miracles!

Today I am grateful for the fact that I am surrounded by miracles!

Everything around us is a miracle, our bodies, the weather, the stars in the sky, our eyes and how we see, breathe, function, our brains, absolutely everything that surrounds us is a miracle!

I find myself on a fascinating path of daily discovery, how I can better myself and getting a solid handle on my mental health. In my beginning, I got on the path to self-destruction and I am thrilled that after decades of psychotherapy, I am finally on the path I want to be on.

Part of that work has involved personal journaling and I still journal to this day and always will. Another technique has been using hypnosis and I will always rely on hypnosis. For one thing, I love it, it is the best and most relaxing process and since I am very motivated, I benefit from it.

Hypnosis is a true marvel, in my humble opinion, because it allows us to root out destructive and non-productive behaviour, examine it and reprogram it into beneficial and healthy behaviour.
If that isn't a win-win situation, I do not know what is.

I have seen hypnosis sessions on TV and they do not reflect the real McCoy. When I am being hypnotized, I am fully aware of what is going on around me, and I can choose whether I want to accept what is being said to me in this wonderfully delicious and relaxing state or if I want to reject it. There is absolutely no way that I could be forced into doing anything I do not want to do.

Currently I am working on building my self-esteem, increasing my income and being fully responsible in my life.  And everyday is better than the day before!!

Friday, September 20, 2013

Gratitude for 9-20-2013 and Learning to Say No.

"Today I am very grateful for my psychotherapist and that we are working on how to say no in a respectful and assertive way".

Have I mentioned how grateful I am for my therapist and psychotherapy in general? I am feeling so much better and happier these days, I believe that the bulk of my issues is behind me and laid to rest. Now I get to work on me and I am loving it!!

In my day to day life, I find myself in some situations where I need and want to say no, thank you but before I would fold like a cheap rug. Fear, wanting to be liked by everyone? Not wanting to rock the proverbial boat?  I now know that if I want to say no, it is ok, I absolutely can say no! I can say it kindly and respectfully, I can simply stand my ground firmly as the need be. I am min no way, shape or form obligated to fold and say yes when I can't do something or when I don't want something. The Sun will still come up in the morning and my life will carry on.

Sunday, September 15, 2013

Journaling to Get My Feelings Out in the Open

I journal avidly, something bothers me and down it goes on paper. I have been in psychotherapy for decades and learned early on that writing helped me get a solid grasp on what was bothering me. This way, I can get a good look at what my issue is and how I want to modify my viewpoint on it or how to improve my behaviour to get that issues behind me. I have done a lot of work on my issues and I have come a very LONG way!!  I believe that I have gotten the issues of my childhood behind me and in doing that a lot of the overeating I was doing that was tied to those issues has subsided.

Now, I find myself turning to food because of issues in my daily life are stressing me out. I am an addict, I have an addictive personality. I did pot, speed, coke and drank to subdue my demons. Alcohol was easier to get my hands on and not as expensive so that became my drug of choice. I drank heavily for over 30 years. It is a flat out miracle that I was never in trouble with the law, I drank and drove frequently.  I also used food as a mask to not address the issues that troubled me for so many years.

I have been sober and clean for almost 6 years now. My dry date is 11-16-2007. I stopped the illegal drugs and the alcohol but I continued to overeat trying to squash the emotions I was running from desperately. I had no idea I was doing this. I had no idea how destructive I was being to myself. Everything was a struggle, I had lost control of my life.

I could not figure out how I had gotten myself there. I looked for a therapist and found the psychotherapist I still go to today. After more years of sabotaging myself, I finally understood how I had gotten to be that way.  I still struggle with sabotaging myself but I am much better than I was.

Gratitude for 9-15-2013 and Grateful That I Can Learn New Strategies

Today I am grateful that I can learn new strategies to help myself.

I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia, Chronic Fatigue and a lot of other health problems many years ago. I still struggle to this day with pacing myself and how to structure my day to not exhaust myself. When I have a day where I feel halfway ok, I overdo it and make myself worse. I am very grateful that I can even sit back and revisit how to pace myself. I am very grateful for the Internet and for how easy it is to research these health problems and to connect with others who have the same conditions.

Changing old habits that no longer help me takes patience and time, but in the long run, I believe it is not time wasted. Being consistent is important, I believe.