Monday, January 22, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Yes!!!!! That's what it is!!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Monday, January 22, 2018, I am grateful for realizing and understanding first hand that when I think about something that makes me happy, instantly flashbacks of mother and her two older daughters explode in my mind because all three were relentless on making me as miserable as possible. 

That is something I can address directly,  I can face that head on because it gives me tangible insight I can process to lessen it's hold on me. Also, it is HUGE progress for me, H.U.G.E. I actually feel stronger.

That hold I mentioned is as old as I am. And it is high time for it to go back to hell where it came from.

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Sunday, January 21, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter



Chances are that you can relate to this:



365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Sunday, January 21, 2018, I am grateful for a program I found on Netflix called Secrets of Great British Castles. It's fascinating!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Thursday, January 18, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Somebody has explaining to do!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Thursday, January 18, 2018, I am grateful for Youtube! I can find whichever subject I am interested in and watch for hours!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Wednesday, January 17, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


What an adorable direction pointer, LOLOL


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Wednesday, January 17, 2018, I am grateful for the happiness and joy I have in my life!
I can remember not wanting to give up drinking because I had to get drunk to enjoy myself. I am so grateful to realize that that could not be further from the truth. I love my life and all of the fun and happiness I share with my friends!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear AL about it!

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter




You're welcome.


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Tuesday, January 16, 2018, I am grateful for Fed-ex and UPS! Although I hate that they are out in this blistery cold weather. I will ask if they are learning new curse words!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Monday, January 15, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


That's because you played your character brilliantly!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Monday, January 15, 2018, I am grateful for my class that begins today. It is 20th Century Art and it is taught by one of my favorite professors! I am JAZZZZZZZED!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!!

Sunday, January 14, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Do we want to know what kitty is thinking? Yes or no?


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Sunday, January 14, 2018, I am grateful for my newest laptop that I am delighted to add to my collections of devices. Everything I need is in this one system; that means no more working on my desktop and emailing to my other devices, LOL

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Saturday, January 13, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Undeniably true!!



365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Saturday, January 13, 2018, I am grateful for the extreme hold hairspray so successfully helping me eliminate the fruit flies that had been buzzing around my home!!

It works great!! I highly recommend spraying winged nuisances with hairspray! 

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!!

Friday, January 12, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Hmmmmmmmm
And, why would that be?


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Friday, January 11, 2018, I am grateful for Pinterest because
I can always find funny pictures to share on my blog. I love to make people laugh!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!!

Thursday, January 11, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


I don't know if I could pull this off without dying 
of laughter but I think this is brilliant!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Thursday, January 11, 2018, I am grateful for being a gamer! I play Chess plus Yahtzee and another fun game I can't remember the name of on BugCafe.com out of Australia.

Wait!

It's a word game called Towers. I have met three dear friends on there and we have been playing for several years now. I play Township, which I love plus I have made wonderful friends because of it, as well. I also love to play Hidden Object Games I buy on
www.BigFishGames.com.
Check it out!
You never know, you might find some games you enjoy!
They have all sorts of great games, not just HOGS.

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


I can remember being in the second grade and asking 
one of my classmates if he had seen my glasses.
They were on my face. I can still remember how he looked at me, LOL


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Wednesday, January 10, 2018, I am grateful for the feedback I received from one of my cousins. Because of the monstrous abuse I was raised in, I developed a mountain of emotions I had to repeatedly stuff deeper inside of me with no hope of resolution. My needs, wants, and desires were constantly ridiculed and used against me. I grew up with a perverted sense of family so I distanced myself from all of my family out of self-preservation. I have maintained that distance for most of my life. I suspect that my two older sisters have presented a misleading image of me to the rest of our family. I don't have any proof of that but that is what I suspect.

Recently, since the feelings I had tangled up with anxieties, just to name a few, are healing and I am a little stronger about interacting with my cousins and relatives.

One of my cousins reached out to me on Facebook on my Daily Gratitude post for Monday, January 8. He acknowledged the distance I have come in healing and overcoming my obstacles. He encouraged me and told me that I am in his thoughts.

So, I am beginning my journey to clear my name in the eyes of my family.

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


This is why I don't have steps!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Tuesday, January 9, 2018, I am grateful for the 
loving feedback and encouraging support 
I receive from my friends!
It is tangible to me; I can actually feel it!
It restores my soul!

What are you grateful for today? 
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Monday, January 8, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Adult diapers are necessary because of this crazy, funny man!
Well, for me they are, LOL


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Monday, January 8, 2018, I am grateful for the tears streaming down my face.

During my first year at SLU, I found out that my brain wasn't working properly. That problem resulted in classes I had to withdraw from, plus one I flunked because I didn't fully understand what was going on with me. During 2017, I found out in therapy that my problem was due to mental health issues, one specific one I had never been told I had.

I found out that I have Complex PTSD. That means that my upbringing was so violent and abusive that I ended up with Clinical Depression PLUS Complex Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

As I educated myself on that topic,
more and more of my behavior began to finally make sense.
I knew I had serious depression problems, but I finally knew what was missing.

Back to my formal education, for me to progress in my classes and graduate one day, I have to be able to write research papers following specific formatting instructions. I would try to read those instructions during my earliest semesters at SLU, but I could not understand any of it. I recognized that the words were all in English but I could not tie them together to make any sense.

That terrified me.

If I cannot find a place where I can earn my living, how can I portray credibility? If I cannot present myself as knowledgeable regarding alcoholism and getting better, I can't support myself and earn a decent living. If I can't do that, I will never get myself out of poverty.

I work hard to resolve as much as possible to improve my mental health issues on a daily basis. I work harder on that than anything I have ever done in my entire life. I know that healing mentally to the best of my ability is crucial to my work and any success I hope to achieve. 

Yesterday, Sunday morning, I was going over my assignments in my upcoming class and I saw that MLA Formatting is to be included in essays assigned for that class. I googled MLA and found a website that detailed out the instructions. It covered about two pages. 

I understood every word of it PLUS I read through ALL of it without having to take a break!!

This is HUGE progress for me and I cannot be more excited or grateful for it.

And I Thank You for reading ALL of this, LOL

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!


Sunday, January 7, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Have you seen the commercial?
This version is better!



365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Sunday, January 7, 2018, I am grateful for the understanding and embracing firsthand my reality where I no longer see my apartment as a transition but as my home. This change encourages me to make it as cozy and relaxing as is possible.

That quality I now see in myself will stay with me as part of who I am. Therefore, it will remain part of me wherever I go.

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!!