Monday, February 19, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Seeing for the first time.....


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Monday, President's Day, February 19, 2018, I am grateful for Youtube!

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Sunday, February 18, 2018

Friday, February 16, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter



How fun does this look??




365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Friday, February 16, 2018, I am grateful for the two young ladies who have taken ALL of the recycling that had accumulated in my home to the recycling center! There was so much that it took them three trips and they were driving an SUV!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Thursday, February 15, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Pool Party!!!!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Thursday, February 15, 2018, I am grateful for kind, energetic helpers and also for finding out there is a place I can take my recycling that that is very close to my apartment!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter



Picture Time!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Wednesday, February 14, 2018, I am grateful for realizing that I am much better off thinking through what I need to get done instead of talking about a goal I want to achieve without making sure the road is clear.

That said, my writing will be posted online for purchase as soon as it and my business licenses and so forth are ready to go. I found out yesterday that my business EIN ( which I obtained when I set up my jewelry business years ago) could be switched to this new small business I am starting. The nice lady at the IRS who took my information and entered the information into their system told me that it would be updated within ten to fourteen days.

Now to do the rest of the errands to get me up and running!

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!


Tuesday, February 13, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Oh, I gotta have this!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Tuesday, February 13, 2018, I am grateful for finding out about search engine optimization and learning how to set it up. Now I am understanding how to make my blog easier to find. 

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Monday, February 12, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


One of my favs, LOL


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Monday, February 12, 2018, I am grateful today is my
fifth year anniversary sharing what I am grateful for every day.

It has been life-changing because I focus on
what is positive. What is lacking
falls into place as I do everything I can to grow.

Now, that does not mean I ignore problems and distressing situations.

I face those problems for what they are and accept
them as part of my reality.

Then, the most astonishing thing happens!

The problem loses its power and becomes a memory that
no longer hurts me, makes me cry, or blocks my way.

                          Solutions gradually show up and I can think through
what to do to bring me back in balance.

There is no drug or alcoholic beverage on Earth that can give us the same result.
We have inside of us what we need to be successful.
We need to learn how to activate it.

But, blocked emotions and problems obstruct direct route to our souls.
When we accept what is bothering us, we heal.  
As we heal, we grow into our wonderful, unique self
we can share with others.

New productive habits give us the privilege to help others get better.
Empowering hurting souls to blossom into genuine and
authentic human beings is an honor.

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Sunday, February 11, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Can you solve the puzzle?


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Sunday, February 11, 2018, I am grateful for facing the emotions I have regarding my frustration at how hard my life is because of the impact my upbringing still has over me.  Daily, I battle my depression, my Complex PTSD, the anxieties from my repressed memories that I still have no idea what is in there, poverty, disability, it is too much for one person to manage on their own. 

Yet, I am still here.

Many years ago, I had to face and accept the reality about the fact that my own flesh and blood mother and two older sisters tried their best to destroy me.  That was crushing to face but it was such a huge part of my reality that I could not avoid it any longer. I had to make peace with it or I wouldn't have been able to get better. 

So, today, I face my frustration about how I am living because I know from my own experiences that once I face it and put it to rest, I will emerge stronger and have a clear picture of what to do next to continue to improve my life and keep myself moving forward. 

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Friday, February 9, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Drama Queen


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Friday, February 9, 2018, I am grateful for my building excitement for finally getting out from under the suffocating burden,
the monstrous secrets my abusers tormented and tortured me with
to keep silent about the crippling abuse they dominated me with. 

That abuse has grossly impaired me for almost the 61 years 
I have been alive.  I have been held captive by those
debilitating ponderous chains for far too long. 

N.O.M.O.R.E.

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Thursday, February 8, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


There's going to be a WEDDING!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Thursday, February 8, 2018, I am grateful for how much I got written yesterday. I wrote almost all day long and I am glad for that because getting that toxic waste out of my system is healing for me. I continue to hope that my writing will reach others like me and maybe they will dare to think about getting better, somehow, someday. They may not even realize that they are being abused. I didn't find that out until I was an adult. I remember being stunned by finding that out because growing up, I thought other families were like mine was. It never occurred to me that I was being abused. I knew my family was cruel and mean, but I didn't realize that their behavior constituted criminal child abuse. I did not realize how much danger I was in at the hands of those three. 

I will continue to write and will post my first essay for purchase one day next week. I wanted to post it on this coming Monday because it is my five year anniversary of posting daily what I am grateful for and the changes that has brought me. I am not sure yet that my essay will be ready to go by Monday, but I will post it next week for sure. 

I am so excited and THRILLED that I am mostly EXCITED about it and feel no fear at all!!
That is an H.U.G.E improvement for me! Exponentially!!

What are you grateful for today? I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter



Bed hogs, LOL


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Wednesday, February 7, 2018, I am grateful for being able to sleep
in my bed last night plus I wore one of my new nightgowns! 
Back probems and some hangup in my head but being able to get
some of the negative emotions I have been burdened with
carrying for so long has helped me so much!

I knew they were and are heavy cargo but it is wonderful to be able to
get out from underneath them and continue to move forward in my life.

And it is really nice to watch tv (old episodes of Dark Shadows on Amazon) in my bed
and not from my recliner for a nice change. I have to mke some changes in my bedroom but I am ok with that, LOL

What are you grateful for today?
I would Love to hear ALL about it!

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


These are soo funny!!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Tuesday, February 6, 2018. I am grateful for all of the feedback I get from my cousins who see my posts revealing the child abuse my mother and two older sisters pummelled me with. I do not know what my cousins, aunts, uncles, and relatives have been told about me or what they think they know about what really went on behind the closed doors of our demented and violent household.

It may be too heinous for them to think about.

But I do know that abusers will trash their victims to other people they know to blame their victim for the problems. 

Because of that, the victim becomes the scapegoat, painted and portrayed as the root of all problems. Also, as the child victim acts out such as lying, angry outbursts, and more, the abusers accentuate those behaviors, as if to say the child is impossible, damaged, nothing she says can be believed.

That destroys the child's reputation in the eyes of anyone who will listen to them. And, more so if no one sits the child down to ask what is going on. The child is abandoned by the family, even though the family surrounds her.

Now, I am working hard to repair the damage done. My reputation in the eyes of my cousins, aunts, uncles, and relatives is finally being developed because now, the truth is coming out and they will see what monstrous hypocrites my abusers truly are. They will also see all of the hard work I have done and am doing to get better and help others like me.

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!

Monday, February 5, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter





I laughed way to hard at this, LOLOL


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Monday, February 5, 2018, I am grateful for finally feeling strong enough emotionally and mentally to break my silence regarding the child abuse I endured growing up. I am ready to stand up and post online my writing about how I became a promiscuous self-destructive, needy, insecure and terrified drunk to how I have happily and productively turned my life around.  The "how" is the most important part of the journey.

Little by little,  I keep moving forward. 

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!



Sunday, February 4, 2018

365 Days of Joy and Laughter


Goodness!! I thought I was a dork!!


365 Days of Gratitude


Today, Sunday, February 4, 2018, I am grateful for getting a solid night of sleep last night. At first, I had to get back up and I played Township for a while, but after that, I was able to sleep. My toothache is still there but I am so grateful that I slept so well last night.

What are you grateful for today?
I would LOVE to hear ALL about it!!